I'm Sorry I've Been AWFUL!

Thinspo For The Day

This one is actually a personal FAV!

Hey Guys!

I know! I've been absolutely HORENOUSSS lately! its been at least a month and i sincerly apologize, my mother went seriously crazy an took away literally everything from me cause I wasnt eating and forced me to eat! I'M NOW 130!!1 THAT'S DISGUSTING!

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!

I feel so disgusting, I can feel the fat just engulfing me!

Anyways Update!!!!

Boyfriend=5 months!

Friends=still amazing beautiful girls who I wish I looked like. I have the serious problem of big hips and big boobs! I HATE IT!

Mother = still INSANE

OHHH and that one girl I mentioned...well lets just say she's taken care of and knows her place :)

but theres a new one unfortunately who THINKS she can just join MY group and she hasn't really done anything to me but shes such a HOEEE and I don't want that type in my group! GET THIS! She met a guy at a hockey game, slept with him in the back of his truck (the same night) he didn't use a condom, and gave her $60 for the morning after pill!!!! YOU'VE GOT TO BE JOKING, RIGHT? A. I'm pro life B. Thats borderline prostitute!

And you know how I said I've never been in a sexual relationship! WELL now I have! Still not sex but i mean 3rd? thats good right?

Unfortunately on Saturday my boyfriend has to come over and meet my WHOLE family (I'm talking aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins), what am i thinking? my immediate family is enough crazy I don't need the whole thing! Anyways WISH ME LUCK! (god knows I'm gonna need it)

XOXO Sophia XOXO

Owl City

Thinspiration for the day! :

Tip Of the Day!:

Pick one food for the day, like an apple. Cut it into 8 slices. Eat 2 slices at breakfast, 2 at lunch, 2 at dinner, and you'll have 2 left for a snack. This way your body thinks it's eating 4 times that day, but in reality you've only had 1 apple. The next day pick another food. Make sure it's only 1 serving that you split up into 3 or more throughout the day.

Last night, I was to go to an owl city concert with my boyfriend and some of our friends! But unfortuantely one of the band members got sick so the show is postponed (idk when its postponed to). But the fact that I was going to a concert with my boyfriend made me not went to eat and I did sooo great yesterday! all I had was a smoothie that night! and it was a fruit smoothie that was healthy and had no calories or fat!

I really like him, although I've never had a really sexual relationship, like I'm almost 16 and I've never gone farther than being felt up! My friends all make fun of me for it too! haha! but we were texting later that night and he said "talk dirty to me" and I had absolutely NO CLUE what to say! lol! I had no idea! So basically I simply avoided that conversation but god! I need some advice for when this comes up again! But I do really like him, cause he challenges me, he's the first guy I've dated thats not completely whiped over me and I dont know what to do cause I cant get him to do whatever I want! I dont mean to sound like in love with my self but still its different for me!

Its Never Been So Hard

Thinspiration for the day:

its a tad blurry but if you click on the picture it comes our much much better and bigger

Today started off great, lots of water, only itsy bitsy porportions of fruits and a few vegitables, had a tiny bit of chicken too (had to get in the protein)and i was doing great! I had play practice and I was on a roll! But then I got a really bad headache, took a bunch of medicine, and started eating without even noticing it! and I was doing SOOO WELL! I hate it when I do something stupid like that and throw it all away! I'm telling you, I need like a constant reminder! Any Ideas?

Anyways I want to be MY BEST! That means be skinny, be confindent, get great grades, know what I'm doing in theatre (perform great), be able to handle all this stress, not get grounded, let my nails grow (i'm a CONSTANT biter...they look disgusting!), be great girlfriend, and a great friend! There's so much I want to do and want to be, I just dont know how to handle it all!

Some More About Me: I get GOOD greats, not great, but good, my average this semester was like a 90 which...could be soooo much better! especially in math and chemistry, i actually have a math test tomorrow that i'm feeling doomed for (guess who'll be up studying all nighttt!!!) I have amazing friends that are all great for sooo many different things! Theres my best friend who I can talk to about anything, my friend who's alllll about the boys, my dancer friend, my friend who has my back about ANYTHING (I mean she'll go completely out of her way to destroy a girl who so much as looks at me in a way that she doesnt find fit), my friend that knows everything, my friend that has "experience" and sooo much more! I have a boyfriend, letsss call himm....B? (sorry guys no real names except mine) but we've been dating for 2 1/2 months, hes hilarious, funny, likes great music, is fun to talk to, always himself (like he'll do the most obnoxious but still very cute things), and i really like him. Which is weird because I'm sorta a commitment phob, like i'm terrified, but not so much with him. I'd still never say I love you before 6 months (its just me) but still thats still a HUGE improvement!

Thats all for now! GTG study that stupid math!

XoXo Sophia XoXo