Missed A Day AND STRESSSS

Sorry I missed yesterdays post guys! but these past two days have been sooooo stressful!!!! tonight I have to write two English papers that are due Wednesday but I have to write tonight because I'm gonna have some friends make corrections for me! I have two MAJOR tests on Wednesday, both of which I know nothing about the subjects so I have to learn it tonight and study/memorize it tomorrow!

I didn't get home till 6 because of play practice and then I went to the gym (burned 480 calories, my intake today was 400 flat).

Meanwhile the couple that my boyfriend and I always hang out with broke up like an hour ago and both of them are freaking out and making me super worried cause I'm best friends with them BOTH! Custody battle much???

God life can be soo demanding don't you think?

Hope you all don't have as much to do as me!

XOXO Sophia XOXO

ps. sorry no tips today (I barely had time to jot this down)

My Family Is Crazyyyyy!

Hello you beautiful skinny people!

So today I was awful I had a roast beef sandwich, Pepsi, and cheese and crackers! Which is disgusting. I feel so guilty after I eat, I really need to remember that feeling before i do because it makes me not want to ever eat again! I am cracking down tomorrow! which should actually be pretty easy cause I have a huge busy schedule - out with a friend, play practice and then a play dinner (one that I will be not eating cause I'm "sick")

So the boyfriend came over today and met all my family! At first, I must admit it was prettyyy awkward but he did GREAT! They all LOVED him! And I'm invited over to his house tomorrow night for dinner for his sisters birthday but I can't as previously stated wayyy to busy!

Wish me luck tomorrow! I KNOW I will stay strong!

THE TIP OF THE DAY!

Make a list of safe foods and stick with them! also if you do your own shopping & have your own fridge/mini fridge fill it with only the safe foods! that way there's ZERO temptation!

LOVE YOU ALL!

XOXO Sophia XOXO

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I'm Sorry I've Been AWFUL!

Thinspo For The Day

This one is actually a personal FAV!

Hey Guys!

I know! I've been absolutely HORENOUSSS lately! its been at least a month and i sincerly apologize, my mother went seriously crazy an took away literally everything from me cause I wasnt eating and forced me to eat! I'M NOW 130!!1 THAT'S DISGUSTING!

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!

I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!

I feel so disgusting, I can feel the fat just engulfing me!

Anyways Update!!!!

Boyfriend=5 months!

Friends=still amazing beautiful girls who I wish I looked like. I have the serious problem of big hips and big boobs! I HATE IT!

Mother = still INSANE

OHHH and that one girl I mentioned...well lets just say she's taken care of and knows her place :)

but theres a new one unfortunately who THINKS she can just join MY group and she hasn't really done anything to me but shes such a HOEEE and I don't want that type in my group! GET THIS! She met a guy at a hockey game, slept with him in the back of his truck (the same night) he didn't use a condom, and gave her $60 for the morning after pill!!!! YOU'VE GOT TO BE JOKING, RIGHT? A. I'm pro life B. Thats borderline prostitute!

And you know how I said I've never been in a sexual relationship! WELL now I have! Still not sex but i mean 3rd? thats good right?

Unfortunately on Saturday my boyfriend has to come over and meet my WHOLE family (I'm talking aunts, uncles, grandparents, cousins), what am i thinking? my immediate family is enough crazy I don't need the whole thing! Anyways WISH ME LUCK! (god knows I'm gonna need it)

XOXO Sophia XOXO

Owl City

Thinspiration for the day! :

Tip Of the Day!:

Pick one food for the day, like an apple. Cut it into 8 slices. Eat 2 slices at breakfast, 2 at lunch, 2 at dinner, and you'll have 2 left for a snack. This way your body thinks it's eating 4 times that day, but in reality you've only had 1 apple. The next day pick another food. Make sure it's only 1 serving that you split up into 3 or more throughout the day.

Last night, I was to go to an owl city concert with my boyfriend and some of our friends! But unfortuantely one of the band members got sick so the show is postponed (idk when its postponed to). But the fact that I was going to a concert with my boyfriend made me not went to eat and I did sooo great yesterday! all I had was a smoothie that night! and it was a fruit smoothie that was healthy and had no calories or fat!

I really like him, although I've never had a really sexual relationship, like I'm almost 16 and I've never gone farther than being felt up! My friends all make fun of me for it too! haha! but we were texting later that night and he said "talk dirty to me" and I had absolutely NO CLUE what to say! lol! I had no idea! So basically I simply avoided that conversation but god! I need some advice for when this comes up again! But I do really like him, cause he challenges me, he's the first guy I've dated thats not completely whiped over me and I dont know what to do cause I cant get him to do whatever I want! I dont mean to sound like in love with my self but still its different for me!

Its Never Been So Hard

Thinspiration for the day:

its a tad blurry but if you click on the picture it comes our much much better and bigger

Today started off great, lots of water, only itsy bitsy porportions of fruits and a few vegitables, had a tiny bit of chicken too (had to get in the protein)and i was doing great! I had play practice and I was on a roll! But then I got a really bad headache, took a bunch of medicine, and started eating without even noticing it! and I was doing SOOO WELL! I hate it when I do something stupid like that and throw it all away! I'm telling you, I need like a constant reminder! Any Ideas?

Anyways I want to be MY BEST! That means be skinny, be confindent, get great grades, know what I'm doing in theatre (perform great), be able to handle all this stress, not get grounded, let my nails grow (i'm a CONSTANT biter...they look disgusting!), be great girlfriend, and a great friend! There's so much I want to do and want to be, I just dont know how to handle it all!

Some More About Me: I get GOOD greats, not great, but good, my average this semester was like a 90 which...could be soooo much better! especially in math and chemistry, i actually have a math test tomorrow that i'm feeling doomed for (guess who'll be up studying all nighttt!!!) I have amazing friends that are all great for sooo many different things! Theres my best friend who I can talk to about anything, my friend who's alllll about the boys, my dancer friend, my friend who has my back about ANYTHING (I mean she'll go completely out of her way to destroy a girl who so much as looks at me in a way that she doesnt find fit), my friend that knows everything, my friend that has "experience" and sooo much more! I have a boyfriend, letsss call himm....B? (sorry guys no real names except mine) but we've been dating for 2 1/2 months, hes hilarious, funny, likes great music, is fun to talk to, always himself (like he'll do the most obnoxious but still very cute things), and i really like him. Which is weird because I'm sorta a commitment phob, like i'm terrified, but not so much with him. I'd still never say I love you before 6 months (its just me) but still thats still a HUGE improvement!

Thats all for now! GTG study that stupid math!

XoXo Sophia XoXo

Begining Of My Story

I'm Sophia!

This is my online journal! It is my first one! I'm desperately trying to lose weight! My weight right now is at 130! Which is aweful since i'm at 5 foot 7! My bmi says that i'm EXACTLY normal, right inbetween actually, but I WANT to be 110! All of my friends are extreamly skinny dancers and I wish to be too!

I'm a sophmore at a highschool, all girls, borinngggg!!! I guess you could say I'm a tad boy crazy...But not really! I used to just be all over the place, new guy I liked every week, ect ect. but now I have a boyfriend who I do really like! We've been going out for 2 and 1/2 months exactly today! Yayy!

I do theatre, I'm in two plays right now! I'm in thespian club! and I just got back from an actors conference! It's not what I want to do later on in life, I'd like to go into medicine, I really just do it for fun! I would say I do it to relieve stress but really, it adds a whole lot more just because i'm always spending 5 to 6 hours of my day at rehersal, it has officially taken over my life!
I have a huge group of friends who I adore! They're amazing, but really, I have this need for everything to be perfect! I guess I have a problem with wanting people to worship me...but I deserve it!

Of course, with every all girls school you have some rather...."catty" (should be the nice word for it) girls! Now, I'm fine with that as long as they're not "catty" to me, then it evolves into an issue! The only girl who's ever done that is this one girl...she's ugly to begin with, she has a "catty" personality, and goes behind almost everyones back and lies...you can understand I dont like this, but I'm taking care of it! I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet but its going to be gooodddd! She is madly in love with my boyfriend...but its best to leave him out of this one i think, or at least make it LOOK like it! God you'd think I came out of the movie mean girls!
Off to rehersal!

I'm becoming anorexic. Its my choice, if you'd like you may leave this blog now! But its what I am! If you would like an ana buddy leave a post with you email and i'll email you!

XoXo Sophia XoXo