I Know, I Know

I've been gone for SOOO long, it feels like I haven't posted in forevverrr!~but I'm back :)

last exam = tomorrow over by 12:30 but its math which is ICKKKK god I hate it!

and to be honest I've been horrible, I've been eating every couple of hours, not much but still enough to make me fattttttt fatttt fat! luckily with exams over it'll all be great! some how in the means of eating eating and eating I've lost two pounds 129? how is this possible? god must be just blessing me to death. unfortunately losing the two pounds is not showing at all I still look awful. and I HAVEEE to look absolutely ridiculously awesome by Saturday cause I'm going shopping with one of my best friends and then to a party sooo lets hope I loose this extra poundage!

anyways hope none of you have these horrendous exams and if you do your doing amazing! oh and I hope your weekend was more eventful then mine, just studying!

You all are BEAUTIFUL and I love youuu!!!

Tip of The Day :)

Wear a rubber band around your wrist and snap it when you want to eat. I stole this tip off an website forever ago and it really works! Its classic conditioning, it was done by Pavlov (can you tell I know my bio!)

Have a great day everyone!

XOXO Sophia XOXO

Its Never Been So Hard

Thinspiration for the day:

its a tad blurry but if you click on the picture it comes our much much better and bigger

Today started off great, lots of water, only itsy bitsy porportions of fruits and a few vegitables, had a tiny bit of chicken too (had to get in the protein)and i was doing great! I had play practice and I was on a roll! But then I got a really bad headache, took a bunch of medicine, and started eating without even noticing it! and I was doing SOOO WELL! I hate it when I do something stupid like that and throw it all away! I'm telling you, I need like a constant reminder! Any Ideas?

Anyways I want to be MY BEST! That means be skinny, be confindent, get great grades, know what I'm doing in theatre (perform great), be able to handle all this stress, not get grounded, let my nails grow (i'm a CONSTANT biter...they look disgusting!), be great girlfriend, and a great friend! There's so much I want to do and want to be, I just dont know how to handle it all!

Some More About Me: I get GOOD greats, not great, but good, my average this semester was like a 90 which...could be soooo much better! especially in math and chemistry, i actually have a math test tomorrow that i'm feeling doomed for (guess who'll be up studying all nighttt!!!) I have amazing friends that are all great for sooo many different things! Theres my best friend who I can talk to about anything, my friend who's alllll about the boys, my dancer friend, my friend who has my back about ANYTHING (I mean she'll go completely out of her way to destroy a girl who so much as looks at me in a way that she doesnt find fit), my friend that knows everything, my friend that has "experience" and sooo much more! I have a boyfriend, letsss call himm....B? (sorry guys no real names except mine) but we've been dating for 2 1/2 months, hes hilarious, funny, likes great music, is fun to talk to, always himself (like he'll do the most obnoxious but still very cute things), and i really like him. Which is weird because I'm sorta a commitment phob, like i'm terrified, but not so much with him. I'd still never say I love you before 6 months (its just me) but still thats still a HUGE improvement!

Thats all for now! GTG study that stupid math!

XoXo Sophia XoXo